Kez, You feel safe and welcomed in the dojo thats a lot of it to. Keep up the good work and I am glad to hear you are fighting it. I wish you the best in beating this terrible thing. Just remember the "I CAN" attitude at all times. Confidence is the key once you can get that to where you need it your attacks will slow down. Being fearful of things in todays world is easy especially since fear is natural being unafraid is the difficult part thats for sure.