Hey everyone i didnt know where to put this, please feel free to move it. I have been very ill lately and my training has completely stopped. For those who know me, they would know i gained my 2nd dan in May. Since late August i have been out of training...and i miss it terribly, i haven't been to one single lesson and i just cant bring myself to go. In September i was admitted to the psychiatric unit, after suffering a mental breakdown. I was there for three weeks and diagnosed with depression, generalized anxiety and OCD. I was released and was making a brilliant recovery. But then at the beginning of this month i relapsed and was admitted to hospital again for another 2 weeks. I am back in work now and doing really really great. My medication is working well and home life is good....but there is something missing... MY KARATE! I miss it so much. During these past months of being ill its all i have i have thought about...It's crazy because every single night i have dreams about karate and my dojo. Karate is my life, next to my kids so why cant i go back? I am desperate to go back but i just cant...i often take my gi from my wardrobe and think. Now things are going very well for me i just need this last thing back. Has anyone ever been through a similar thing? What can i do to myself back in the dojo? I even miss my teaching of the kids class, and i believe they have been asking about the missing sensei. It's very sweet of them. Please advise guys! Kez xx