Tossing And Turning!!

[sensei8]

What keeps you up at night??

For me, I'm always worried about the future of Shindokan; with all that is Shindokan!! We've gone through some unsettled history; past and present, which might affect our future. I believe that the SKKA is solid and its infrastructure is intact...now...under my watch.

But, I'm not going to lie, history has a tendency of repeating itself no matter what's in place to secure its existence for many years to still come. I'm confident that our By-Laws and the like, as well as our Legal Team, have put in place many levels of protection to thwart off any type of indiscretion.

However, whatever has been created for the good, can be destroyed for the bad. People are involved; people are fallible, and seeing that the current hierarchy won't live forever, our successors could re-write history by amending any and all official decrements and the like for whatever their reason(s) might or might not be. Time will tell!!

While I've confidence now, and in the future for Shindokan's well-being, a part of me is leery and feels unsettled; it's the unknown that seems to trouble keep me awake at times.

[sensei8]

Anyone??

What keeps you up at night??

Student and/or Instructor??

OR...

Maybe I'm the only one that doesn't get a full night sleep.

[mal103]

I've got a small school in comparison but the responsibility is great and does keep me on my toes, it also provides several hours thinking/worrying sometimes. The worse time for this is when I wake up at night and then can't get back to sleep.

Most of my worries though are for my students, especially near a grading, will I be forced to fail them, will they give up etc.

All you can do is your best and set a good example.

[hammer]

Lots of stuff can keep me up or disrupt sleep, but MA related...

• Pre-test or pre-tournament jitters
   
  When I had a crisis of conscience at my old school it kept me up a few nights
  

[sensei8]

I've got a small school in comparison but the responsibility is great and does keep me on my toes, it also provides several hours thinking/worrying sometimes. The worse time for this is when I wake up at night and then can't get back to sleep.

Most of my worries though are for my students, especially near a grading, will I be forced to fail them, will they give up etc.

All you can do is your best and set a good example.

Thank you for your post!!

The things that keep you up, imho, are normal things for instructors who truly care about their students across the board; your students have become a big part of your family, so to speak. And any instructor that cares about his/her students as you do, can't be doing to bad.

The bold type above, imho, says it all!!

[sensei8]

Lots of stuff can keep me up or disrupt sleep, but MA related...

• Pre-test or pre-tournament jitters
   
  When I had a crisis of conscience at my old school it kept me up a few nights
  

Thank you for your post!!

Performance anxieties for upcoming important events get all of us. I still get the jitters, but my jitters now are more directed towards my students than for myself.

When I was much younger, I'd often not settle down until the event and judgment was completed; pacing, as I did, only wore down the carpet. Not even listening to music settled the nerves. And testing cycles, the night before, forget it...the butterflies in my stomach would flutter like a tornado, and things wouldn't subside until just after a few seconds once on the floor. Get off the floor, it would start all over again!

[chrissyp]

Same thing every night, I dream about glory...just getting back in the ring and competing... it's been 3-4 long years out of the ring, I just turned 30, and I'm hell bent on achieving something before it's all said and done. But every night, I stay awake just dreaming and thinking about when it's gonna be my time.

[tallgeese]

I hear ya' on this one sensei8, the kempo system I come out of is small. Like real small. And with the break up of the overseeing organization, it isn't looking to expand. This has left a bit of pressure on the black belts to step up.

However, I spend most (like nearly all) of my time these days in BJJ. And while I'm instructing a lot, it's almost all in BJJ. So, as one of the few active black belts (GS and MP aside) what am I doing to make sure there's a future for Bujin?

Unfortunately, the answer is not much. I'm slowly indoctrinating my kids. I'm using the principles to train a lot of cops. But organizationally and art wise I'm not exactly expanding it beyond this generation yet. We'll see.

For now, my time is mostly spent making my jits game better, passing it on, and striving to improve my PTK.

Now, add on the stress of taking over the BJJ program at the school I'm at and factor in that "keep me up" factor and you've got more than a few sleepless nights.

It does keep me up a bit.