Grandiose!!

[sensei8]

Sensei8, I have to say I'm a bit confused. You have many years experience, you are currently bored out of your skull, you obviously disagree with the way things are being done and you have stated that they are lost and or confused. The way I see it is they are looking to you for all the right reasons, but maybe chose the wrong words. I would say any conversation would probably use the same references as your personal feelings on things are just that yours and they are quite possibly oblivious to the way you feel or see things. Seems you are in a position to lead at a point in your life in which you are most qualified to do so. I believe you could lead them in the right direction and make some lasting changes and impressions. Of course if you are not interested then I understand. At the same time I myself don't quite understand it entirely as you do so i'm aware there is a lot that I am unaware of lol

I'm not that bored out of my skull!!

First, you have to know the Hombu as I do to truly understand why I feel as I do. The Hombu will ask one time politely, then after that, no matter how clear the response might be, they hound you and hound you and hound you until either your resolve or theirs gives in.

Yes, I'm greatful and very thankful for the Hombu's continued support and believe in my abilities across the board. Nonetheless, I'm retired! More importantly to me than it is to the Hombu is this; Dai-Soke has just passed away and I'm mourning his passing harder than I thought I would. In that, I'm not ready, for now, and I'm not sure if I ever will be. Time heals all wounds. My services as Kaisho are still theirs without any reservation because it's the student body that's important.

The Hombu doesn't want to hear that. NO! They want to act like a bill collector and hound me unceasingly. I've advised them as to what they should do...and that is...pick a name from the list of three names that I've submitted just recently as quailfied Chief Instructors...bingo...vote on the chosen candidate...and if the votes are unanimously...then there's the new Chief Instructor for the Hombu! As Kaisho, Senior Advisor, I've done my roll...I advised. If not, tell the current Kaicho to fullfill his dual duty as the Chief Instructor of the Hombu.

Give me some grieving time, however long that may be! Is that to much to ask? No, I don't think it is.

[JiuJitsuNation]

I can see that. I have no idea how I would take it if something happened to Master Palhares. Thanks for your response.