Hi guys, I need to pick your brains. this is my first visit to Karate forums, and I'm hoping you can help me sort things out in my head. I've been heavily involved in the martial arts since I was around 10 years old. I began my training in Kyokushin with a terrific insructor and about 6 years later went of to college and the club has since closed. I'm 28 years old now, and have been kickboxing and instructing for the past 5 years or so. In between Ive tried to stay actively involved and train with a few different clubs and styles. Ive expereinced a lot of what the martial arts, particularily Karate and kickboxing has to offer. I'm just getting over some rather serious neck problems that stem from childhood, and have rejoined a goju ryu club locally. I'm also running a kickboxing class for some of the adults. I was originally looking towards rejoining a Karate club to eventually get my blackbelt, because Ive always felt badly that, that was something I didnt accomplish in the period of time twice as long as it taakes most people. Now that i've returned to the scene after 6 months off from kickboxing, I'm finding it hard to get motivated to leave in the evenings, and I'm wondering if my love with the arts has died down. On the other hand, It's something I know i've always done better than anything else in my life, and I don't want to let it go. I'm sort of frusterated, and having a tough time desciding what to do. I also don't want to let the club down Ive just started teaching for. If anyone can give me suggestions or offer thoughts, it would be beyond appreciated. Thanks. Ryan