khubani

You're right, but I don't desire power just to have it. I desire that energy for self satisfaction, and to feel a sense of youth, emotionally. I want to be able to harness a sense of aura from my body, to engulf myself in an overwhelming feeling of happiness - a feeling of completion. This, in my opinion, is achieved through the clarity of the mind. i.e; meditation ..But where do I start?

I appreciate you all defining my perception of internal arts. So it's really not a matter of qi, but it's a matter of self-confidence, something I greatly lack because of conflicts of interest. I suppose this isn't the place for me.

Years? I had a feeling you would say something like that. I'm turning 20 in less than 24 hours from now, it seems I've had a late start. I already have a basic understanding of meditation and have done it for short periods of time. And thank you for the warm welcome. Any other advice?

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