Squall

first of all, thanks for the supportive responses, it's really nice to hear them. Thanks for the encouragement in a rough time. I'm going to take a looong time off, but I'm going to be heading to a nice traditional dojang when I'm ready to go back, the place looks good and I'm excited to be going. My former instructor should be calling soon, THAT should be interesting. thx again all!

yeah, it was just really frustrating to have to go through that again, and I had a head injury while I was writing that. I'm going to rest up and heal for a while, then there's a traditional tkd school I'm going to check out. Oh, and I didn't mean to say that ALL bjj guys are like that, they aren't. Hey I know some bjj, and I'm not, and I knew some good guys at the bjj place too. But you know how people always say that MMA tends to attract the tank abbott-like guys? Well, those guys are everywhere but they seem to really flock to MMA, and they found that bjj school, so that's what it turned into.

Here's my problem, just venting I guess. I've been doing ma since I was a kid, First tkd, traditional, then the place closed and held me on a contract, tried a sport-tkd place, the instructor didn't like me cause I was from a dojang that he hated. Eventually did jkd, but the place was just a psycho fight club. From there, I did some hapkido and sword arts, but I fell in love with a girl there and she did far worse than just brake my heart. The instructors and her were all friends, and they'd do everything they could to get me to quit. One of them was constantly trying to get me to explode, and one night I came in after not sleeping that night, and we got in a fight. From there I did bjj, but as I matured, I didn't like being around the whole, fighting for no reason, angry skinhead guys with no morals type that trained there so I went back to traditional stuff. I found a new place and was very happy there until tonight. Our instructor had us spar tonight, and he made a point, and demonstrated on me, how light our contact was supposed to be, which was very light. Eventually he started freaking out, and was coming at me near full force, if not all the way there. He knocked me into the wall a couple times, and then kicked me very hard in the head, as I was coming up from a duck. if I didn't have my sparring helmet on I would've been injured badly, I have no doubt. Eventually we fell on the ground, and he flipped me and got to kesa gatame, but I got my legs out and around his arm somehow, and he tapped. During the sparring, the other students were all yelling at him to stop and get off me, and to break it up and knock it off, because he was just going crazy. You'd think if all your students were yelling at you that you're taking it too far you'd stop. I'm lucky that I had a helmet on, that I was able to dodge most of his kicks, that I wasn't injured when I hit the wall, that I was able to get in that armbar on him. Most Of all I'm lucky that I didn't get in a car accident driving home after sustaining so much impact to the head. I know it sounds like I'm whining, but I'm not, I'm just so sick of all this. I'm going to tak as much time off as I can, before I start get ting bored. Why are so many instructors psychos?

nice to see someone else with their head on straight, however, if you are in an enviroment, where you are constantly being mocked, you must stick up for yourself, and must be prepared to defend yourself. You can be attacked without even sticking up for yourself, so, it's not a completely avoidable problem. But fighting over nothing, probably one of the stupidest things a man can do.