I know why I'm angry, but its the rage, its consuming me. Take for instance this situation at school, (I'm in secondary school.) There's a kid called James, quite big, could probably take me, but I think I'd give it a good go. He plays football [soccer] and as a result thinks he's extremely tough and can beat up anyone. He used to be quite good friends with me, but recently he's been saying rude and hurtful remarks about me. He's got a 'crew' called HNIC filled with other football players who follow him like sheep, to make fun of this me and a few other friends that don't like him made up a crew called FJC. Now things are escalating, they've been making fun of us in front of the girls, saying it to people that would make sure it got back to us. James has been talking about having a fight with us, well, not us, mainly me. I understand that it goes against martial arts code to fight against him, but he deserves a beating. Some of the things that he's said are beyond apology. I have a certain family situation thats been going on for 9 years, (its the cause of my anger,) and he has the cheek, the nerve, the arrogance to make fun of me because of this. I can feel my anger rise as I type this, and I want to punch him even more. If I do end up fighting him, the cops would probably be called. I don't want that, but I know that if he keep saying stuff I'm going to hit him. ^That above story is an example of my anger controlling me. I know that if I fight this lad then I'll get in more trouble than him, but my anger is swaying me completely to this side. I can't control it. [/i]