WiltedRose

Thanks to everyone for the advice and support. Special thanks to sensei8 who's words were beautiful and really made me smile Unfortunately he suffered a bruised eye socket after what happened I did apologise and he apologised for his part in it too. But worries me is he says I him him twice, I honestly do not think I did. I think it would be an awkward technique to use twice in that way. It kind of makes me doubt myself however, was I that out of control that I didn't even know I'd done it twice or can I actually trust his words on this? I don't know. I think I would know, surely? and even if I did, I know I wouldn't use that technique twice one after another with the same hand, it wouldn't work. Anyway, I'm rambling. I've told him if he ever shouts in my face again I will simply walk away and reconsider the relationship.

I just wanted a bit of advice really, I don't feel I can discuss this with anyone in 'real life' at the moment. I am 1st dan in wado ryu, train 2/3 times a week. Obviously, karate means alot to me. Anyone that knows me (including the karate class) will tell you I am probably the least violent person they know. I hate confrontation and violence. Anyway have been having a few relationship problems just lately and last night I got into a huge argument with my fiance'. He became extremely angry and started shouting right in my face and I lost it completely and struck him in the face with teisho uchi. I am shocked and disapointed with myself. I have never hit anyone before and I don't know why or how it happened. I don't know if I felt threatened and lashed out in defense. I'm more annoyed that I used a karate technique to attack someone. I have of course apologised but I know that doesn't make it ok. Has this ever happened to anyone else? I feel so ashamed. I am due to class today and I feel too ashamed to go